Wanderlust: by Philip Kane
Old need seeps through red steel and it dons a turban when it flows past the candles. Like a whisper from the darkest canyon, where tailors’ dummies lurk in the expectation of meeting their prey, it writhes at the windows with a cobra’s ecstasy.
I am tempted to rip apart the notebooks that clutter the floor. It would be a meditation on trees, and probably a triumph of classical music at the same time. I am tired of the beasts that trample down the growing statues in my garden, tired of the cat I hung from the chandelier. So it seems a good moment to sink my father’s boat in the harbour and drown all the options.
That’s the conundrum that faces me whenever I open the door into the laying-out room. I filled it, yesterday, with blue sheets and strips of torn newspaper. I had hoped that it might resolve itself into a kind of iris, one with a clear calculation in the top right-hand corner, an illustration of Daniel Defoe on the cover, and a bent staple in the binding. Instead, there appears to be an ambidextrous medicine-man nesting in the middle of it. I found him chewing on his own shoe leather; he invited me to join him but I declined, regarding it as a ploy intended to lull my insecurities.
Obviously, the presence of a cup of tea on the lawn perpetuates a myth; that the more civilised the omnibus drivers of a country, the more floral its arrangement of armies and fleets. Such stories, left to ferment in the rain, build themselves up into a cliff carved with the portraits of notable rapists.
I always wanted, instead, to codify the nocturnal wanderings of choristers, annotate the manuscripts written on trouser belts by deafened camp followers, sit remembering the callow youth of my conscripted guardians.
I found this most inspirational. I like the way it combines black humour and a kind of uncanny ‘terror, lurking in the shadows’.